photo by Chelsea Laine Francis
Six months ago, I was eating pizza and ice cream to celebrate my twenty-sixth birthday with my newly-injured boyfriend and a bunch of my lovely friends. I optimistically set 27 new goals, hoping that instead of life getting in the way of doing the things I wanted, life would just become the things I wanted.
If I’m being honest, this year has been exceptionally hard. Hard in new and unexpected ways. I’ve had the kind of growing pains that only come with having to get through stuff you can’t or don’t plan for, knowing there’s got to be a light at the other end. I did some serious emotional growing that wasn’t exactly on my to-do list, and I’m better for it. But that doesn’t mean that some things from my standing to-do list weren’t put on the back-burner or sacrificed altogether.
This is how I’ve learned, over the years, to be flexible with my goals. Goals change as we realize we want or need different things, and as life throws new challenges and blessings our way. Like clockwork, when my birthday rolls around each year, I look at these bucket list goals and try to remember the person I was when I wanted certain things. I then look forward, trying to predict what things I’ll want next. Life is funny that way, that you really can’t pretend to know what life you’ll live too far in the future.
I’m getting a little too far into musing territory as I write this on Sunday evening. I’m trying to reconcile the sadness I felt when I saw how few goals I’d accomplished since May with the fact that this year hasn’t exactly made it easy to work towards achieving much beyond making it to the end of each week. Certain goals have had to change; I stopped keeping fresh flowers in the house when I stopped going to the grocery store (read about that here), but I bought several faux blooms that I display around the apartment. Others were postponed; going to the beach was just not in the cards during summer of 2016, but hopefully I can make it in the next six months.
I do have some fun things in the pipe for the coming months that I couldn’t mark off just yet! I did cross out renting an AirBnB with Dago because it’s technically booked, but Dago and I will be heading to Nashville for New Year’s and I couldn’t be more excited about it! I’m also planning to finally get my next tattoo in either December or January, budget depending. I had actually forgotten that I set out to find speaking opportunities, but this desire has been reignited recently and is at the forefront of my planning for 2017.
I’m definitely glad that I did this half-birthday check-in, because there are way too many goals I forgot I even set! Here’s to doing my best and kicking butt in the next six months!
P.S. Check out my tips for creating your own birthday bucket list!